Too Much

yesterday, Sept 3rd, at 1:48pm i received a text from dave, bless his crooked little heart: "Hey you alright bud? That was a creepy text to send after leaving you bleeding on the street."
out of it's context, the mind reels at this. and it presented me with what my infinite naivete allows me to accept as a fine idea: the textblog. my phone autosaves my 50 most recently sent messages. i don't know if you ever think about going back through them but you should some time, at least out of curiosity.
at any rate, it was quite a week in this boy's life. ups and downs, strikes and gutters, sometimes you eat the b'ar............
so i've got a little bit of the drunklog from the weekend as well and i'll get around to posting it later. i guess you can consider this textlog the gutter.
one final note: i've got an odd perverse sadomasochistic delight in publicly glorying in my depravity, so i'm no stranger to emotional/vulnerable exhibitionism, but i've got to say that in rereading these texts it strikes even me as very intensely personal. maybe it's too much. but then that's really just keeping with the theme. too. much.

Tues Aug 28, 12:21pm - You ready to head in yet
12:28pm - Were meeting at prospect ave r stop no later than one
12:29pm - Got to be one thirty
12:32pm - One you degenerate
2:07pm - Im an animal i cant help it
3:15pm - Hey i took a sick day an were drinkin outside
3:21pm - White horse for a bit more
3:25pm - Ta-da! Sick day!
6:06pm - Wtf you at
6:09pm - Hey dude. Sick day. Drunk. Awesome.
6:37pm - At the half pint then heading east
7:38pm - Dont know where it is
Thur Aug 30, 12:19pm - Im out tonight. Doing a thing at work this eve then going home and going to sleep
8:59pm - Haha thanks. Actually i checked it and that is the french spelling
Fri Aug 31, 4:54pm - Ill be home by five thirty at latest
9:33pm - Come to manhattan a hole
9:47pm - Going to tile bar now
9:50pm - Come on out tonight
10:05pm - Were out in the village
10:13pm - Hows the party?
11:14pm - In the village
11:30pm - E. Lunasa currently
12:30am - Wtf you at were at blue and gold in five min
12:35am - Fuck it were at blue and gold in five min
1:32am - Only the coolest cats
2:27am - Tell dave the idiot he left his phone
Sat Sept 1, 11:35am - Come to times sq and booze. Dont know when it starts ask dave for real info
11:39am - When we meeting for this game
12:36pm - Bastard
7:27pm - Dude were out
7:29pm - Whats up today kiddo? Were out of course
8:20pm - Well we'll be rockin out in hells kitchen for a while longer if yer around yer place
8:25pm - Ok
8:26pm - No but for the love of god we will do all we can to make it happen
11:20pm - Where you at
12:20am - At ace bar now prob for the night
Sun Sept 2, 1:57pm - Jus woke up elbow hurts
2:08pm - Go fuck yourself im hitting the chivas now getting in the shower tell me where to go
2:25pm - d u n
3:25pm - You want me to bring anything
1:35am - My Rothko . . . . .
2:19am - I am love-drunk and i hate the world. sorry
Mon Sept 3, 11:47am - i'm terribly in love with you. i'm sorry josh
1:54pm - No. Im in love. Miserably.
2:59pm - Dont know. Kinda bummin
3:02pm - I dont know